Thankyouu for showing me that things change, and so do people. Thankyou for fucking me over suddenly, even though you pretty much broke my heart. Thankyou for the grief i gave myself thinking there was something so wrong with me that i couldn’t have someone as good as you.Thankyou for leaving me alone. But mostly, thankyouu for teaching me to not dwell on stupid shit, because thanks to you i don’t cry anymore. If something works out, great. If it doesn’t, there loss, i’ll just start over. Change is a scary thing, but it feels so good when i know that it’s all for the better. Thankyou.
I wish I wasn’t lonely. I wish that I actually cared about things. I wish you didn’t hurt me. I wish that I didn’t still want you. I wish that it was the other way around. I wish I had money. I wish I was at the beach. I wish I had my own place. I wish I could relive stuff. I wish everyone didn’t separate. I wish I had someone to cuddle with. I wish that we worked out. I wish I could kiss you. I wish I wasnt so lonely. I wish I was skinny. I wish I was pretty. I wish you made me felt like I was worth something. I wish I could go back to 2006. I wish I could just run away and never come back. I wish I had siblings at my moms. I wish I could go on a raodtrip. I wish I could sleep. I wish I was happy.